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Sleeping inner reality

Journal Entry: Wed Aug 27, 2008, 9:41 PM


Before i tell you about my dream you have to understand some small family history. My grandmother is and was Edna Sedgwick she has and had two twin sons and a daughter. One of the twins is my father i say "is" cos he is still alive, the other brother and sister are dead along with there mother. Though they are not silent as i will show. I had only met my grandmother 4 times in the living that i can recall. The last i saw her she was dying of alzheimers. The 3rd time of meeting her i can most recall was when i was 4 years old. She was the star of her age a strong lovely dancer acting in the movies of her time. She was wealthy and priceless. She would have taught be about self survival and self love. I have never had a good family but she sure could pull us together and was scary enough to not care if other didn't like it. My grandmother had nothing cheep you must understand and get around this she has and had it all. Silk, silver, crystal, jewels, fur, help, anything and everything was hers.

I have visited my grandmother in dreams before and she has visited me. We have an understanding. In most times of visiting her she is throwing large parties, my grandmother loved social events and she was very classy at it. I have only ever gone to this point to only visit my grandmother. Though cos she is hosting a large party i do see other familiar people. I have even met people i didn't know in life but saw old photos of later. People long past on, but i must stress that i only trust her to see me through i would only see her.

And now on to my dream..


The beautiful house of my grandmother look aged and neglected. Plants were dead, dying and growing wild where they touched water. I was led here by a running rabbit, i was chasing it. It was the only living thing in all the grey, the rabbit with the red pules. It ran through the fence into the side yard of the house and i followed it find the rabbit gone standing in front of two children. One boy and one girl child, i knew where i was but didn't understand what they meant by being here. I had others with me at this point coming to the front of the very large house. This people with me i don't know in the waking world though i have dreamed with these people before.

When they were alive. I know now it was the same people as the children i had just met. I wasn't comfortable around the children that might have been only 6 or 7. So they had given me old visions of them selves to make me more at ease. They had just made them selves grow.

My friends and i [which were just old versions of the children i had met] stood on the landing of the front door. The children told us that people had forgotten about the house and them and they were now locked out. I didn't like this boy and girl from the start i knew they were dead. Just way did they want in this house it was my grandmothers house. There was beautiful old things inside i treasured i didn't want the dead in the house. The children explain that they lived there once and now were meant to take care of the house but couldn't get in.

The older boy and girl me encouraged me and my "friends" to find the key to the front door some we could let them in. The little girl even complained her bird didn't have any food and must be getting hungry.

I looked in the shallow garden pool but found only dead birds and wild plants. I didn't bother to look outside long the children encouraged me to look inside. The older girl that was with me came away from the door landing with a large plain of glass, saying we could get in through the front window. The children became colder looking every second i stayed outside the house. Stepping through the window after the older boy i pulled out my flash light it was way to dark. The children didn't follow it was clear they were dead and weren't fooling me they began to flash through the house whispering things. Things about how they missed the place so much the little girl was even sad to see her bird in its large cage long long dead and covered in dust. Moving over the beautiful black marble dining table i saw three very well lighted porcelain vases filled with cherries and cherry stems. Its sometimes the only thing that gets my attention black, white, and red red red. It was lovely in fact i was so struck with it the children had to remind me what i was looking for.

Moving into the kitchen hallway i found the older boy i was with look over the old rusty eating utensils, he said he loved them and missed the told me all about them. That then he knew his cover was blown he WAS one of the dead little children and with that he vanished along with the girl. It began to rain and leak through the walls. The children looked a bit sorry they had tricked me always staying out of my reach. They were dead but i could still have hurt them and cleaned them off the side of my dreamings. They lead me to the stairs where one of these lovely white porcelain rested but its leaves were dead and the fruit long gone. These vases drew me to them, i took this one off its high stool taking it the the dining table to look at it better. Taking out its old bouquet the vase was filled the cherries and juice and dark red colors i didn't want on me. The children looked on me with searching faces they wanted me to look for what they were looking for.

All i wanted to know was, just what was hiding at the bottom of the vase that was really filled with cherries and blood. As i started to dig through the cherries one handed the more cherries i came away with the more red bits in the vase became not cherries. The vase began to fill with ripped bits of flesh and blood till i knew i would never find the end of it all. I came away with red bloody arms and hands. Looking up at the children and their apologetic faces they wished me to not fight with the clearly temping vase.

I walked all through this house and these poor dead children i could not seem to help. Everything i touched from the vase on was reddened with blood and i could not stop from touching anything it seamed. Clean pink silks in the bathroom and closet died at my red red hands. It wouldn't come off and i didn't notice i was even painting the house red till it began to rain so hard they said i had to leave at once. Running out of the house my bloody red mess came after me leaking lines as the walls began to moan and scream and laugh at my red red hands.

The front door opened as i raced down the stairs threatening to close. The tiny children screaming from the yard yelling to me to come to them. I took their tiny hands pulling them away from the front door as it cracked and whined with a deeper aging. Taking them away from the door i told them very simply not to play here and to not come back with out me. I told them i loved them and that we would meet again and we will.

In a better light.


The only time i ever left sway to a dream i know now the children were my aunt and uncle. My fathers passed one brother and sister.

Be watchful of your family even after death, they still might need you.





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~Happygoth08:iconHappygoth08: Jan 19, 2009, 9:50:37 PM
Hey baby girl ... i heart u
*chulii:iconchulii: Nov 28, 2008, 1:24:29 PM
thanks for faving winter melody :snowing:

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Mood: Thanks ~Arashi1988:iconArashi1988: Sep 26, 2008, 10:57:18 PM
hello sempai how are u i finally made a deviant art page just can ya help me make it ... just a little confused[link]
~LAURA-777:iconLAURA-777: May 19, 2008, 3:11:04 PM
hi,

thank you for responding to that serious matter i wrote about. you know the worst things about that is when people dont care or just dont want to hear it, or believe it happened to you, they would like to beileve that you brought it on to the person who did it to you etc. thats why Listening is #1 feature to have regardless of any subject. because if people listen more, things could get done.

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~icetears:iconicetears: May 19, 2008, 4:34:44 PM
Maybe i never really thought about why people react in such a why. I have a bit of a sadistic philosophy then it comes to people who should be loyal and aren't.

(clearly havent gotten over being pissed at the world)
:/
~LAURA-777:iconLAURA-777: May 24, 2008, 5:54:49 PM
some people are insecure. they need to be put in their place.

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Mood: Triumph ~Happygoth08:iconHappygoth08: May 5, 2008, 2:06:35 PM
Hey baby bear ^_^, I got some new pics on here if u want 2 drop by and c ^_^
~icetears:iconicetears: May 5, 2008, 2:56:47 PM
YAY cooly ^^ i know you submited then rather quickly.
*Sleetwealth:iconSleetwealth: May 1, 2008, 5:59:51 PM
Thank you for faving Selkie and for commenting
~icetears:iconicetears: May 2, 2008, 2:48:01 PM
^^ your welcome keep up the awesome work!
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